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5/12/2015

My Inspirations



Sharing this video: Pinapagalitan nya ako. ayaw pa nya matulog.




 She Loves to sleep in this position


 Got fever because of her teeth

 Just a selfie post




 Dddy is busy playing COC, and Shana is busy playing the head set



 just another selfie!

 Our second baby Lovelee Dhana

5/03/2015

A Stormy like this










When I was single, I have never imagined how difficult it was to have your own family. I know it was difficult but I don’t know "HOW" really difficult it was. Now that I have my own, married for 2 years, and still adjusting. God gave us a daughter she’s 9 months already and 3 more months left and my second baby is coming.

In my case, I have to sacrifice my work just to attend to my baby’s need. I don’t have someone (helper) to help me raise my child and do the chores. My husband is the only one working in the family. We have been renting an apartment since 2013. And now that he is only one working, we are now experiencing financial difficulties. Which I called it “STORMY LIKE THIS”.

Bills, bills, bills!! Are flooding our way. We can’t pay it. We are under debt. At the same time, I’m now 6 months pregnant and it was hard for me to do some of the household chores and I can’t carry my baby any longer. She used to stay inside the crib for the whole day. My sister is the one doing the errands for me, well of course, not all the time, because she has something to attend too.

 Budgeting is no longer in line because we’re always ended up negative. Money is the number problem in the family. At this point, we prioritize the needs of our baby like diaper, milk, water and food.

Sometimes I think that it is better to give up. And go back from where you are before, be single again. But God always reminding me not to give up. A stormy like this is just temporary. He keeps on pressing this bible verses in my mind:


Ecclesiastes chapter 3:  A time for everything

1There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.


Ephesians 3:20
‘”Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,”

Phillipians 4:19         
“And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.”


 I don’t know what tomorrow may bring. But one thing is for sure, I have my God who will help us. I don’t know his plan. All I need to do is simply wait for him and trust him completely.



Keep the fire burning!!

4/22/2015

The lost of my beloved mother



I don’t know how or when to start this story.

My siblings called her mama, when she was young, her friends called her Julie, Claire when she’s at work, Nanay Clarita to her church family in New life and lastly, lola Julie to her apo’s (grand children).

As a mother
We grow up in a simple and ordinary living.  She never tolerate us in buying things which are not important or rather say “luho”. She is a nurse in a government Hospital for almost 30 plus years. Would you imagine this was her first and last working experience on her entire life? What a loyal employee! But the government doesn’t even recognize her as this. 

Anyway, here are some of her characteristics:
  
Industrious
 She is dedicated to her work, I never recall a thing that she used to be absent for no reason, we came to this world with my siblings and yet she never gave up her work. The salary she’s getting is not enough to raise us (also with my father their both raising us together). A lot of stuff that she used to buy and sell for added income. Anything that can be sell like mani, candy, chocolate, cabinet, caldero those are just the things that I recall, I’m sure there’s a lot of it. When she arrives home from work she’ll do household chores afterwards, she usually gets mad if she got home with a messy house. She really doesn’t like a dirty/messy house. You will end up hearing a lot of words coz she’s nagging already.

Nurse
Everyone is looking for her if they have question about the medicine they will take. When I was sick (and my siblings), she really takes good care of us, wiping towel on my forehead when I have a fever, giving a sponge bath to make you feel refresh and giving you the medicine right on time.  She makes sure that you will be okay soon.  These are one of the things that I will miss with her.

Added to this, when I gave birth to my daughter last July 24, 2014, she was there at the hospital despite her condition. She stayed outside the operating room with my husband sitting on her wheel chair (no available room for me that time – still waiting to some patients to be discharged) and she uses her walker when walking but with difficulty, that in any moment she might slip, accident may happen. Same thing she does with my sister when she also gave birth to Shekinah.



                      These pictures was taken 2009, mom's last day from work (early retirement)

Generous
When I was in college she started telling stories on how she grows up and how they survive from everyday living. I mentioned above that she is selling mani and other stuff just to provide our needs.

Even when she was young she started doing this, she also provides the needs of her siblings together with her mother, my lola. Despite the situations she has, she is generous enough to lend money to her relatives and officemates.
As you can see; she also needed the money she just earned from selling and working. She will give it right away, not a single word, or not even bothering you when to pay your “utang” (debt) even if it took many years already.

With this reason, God blessed her most! She’s not the one begging: she’s the one who give and provide willingly. That is why God helped her accomplished the things which is important to her too. She was able to pay the house full (together with my father) and she got a 2 lot in Everest hill and paid it full too. A lot of accomplishment too many to mention here.

As a Christian

Here is her testimony.

My mom grows up in a catholic church. Later on, she started attending Christian service in New Life in Christ Church Muntinlupa, year 2005.

Since then, she attended the service every Sunday, I mean, every Sunday! If you can’t see her during the service, that’s the time she’s in deep pain and her feet is swollen. Though with her condition, she is dedicated and wants to be in the presence of God. Faith builds and later deepens her relationship with God.

She used to read the bible everyday especially at night; you can see her also praying before going to sleep and she dance and sing while listening to her favorite worship CD.
                                                                                      
Mama is faithful in giving tithes and offerings to the church and also to the 700 club Asia. (See how generous she is? though she needed the money in buying medicine, she still gives freely and wholeheartedly).

When we’re still together attending the church, I remember during worship time, while singing, her both hands up (a sign of surrendering to God), I saw her crying. I know why she’s crying, it’s her prayer to God to heal her. I will never forget that moment.

Though my mom doesn’t heal physically, her soul is healed and at rest even she has sickness. She has a happy disposition; you will never hear from her blaming God why physical healing never happened. She trusted God completely.

 I remember telling us, if she died, during her wake, no gambling (sakla) and no superstitious belief! Anything that is not permitted by God is not allowed on her wake. She followed what is written in the bible. And that happened already during her wake last February  13 to February  18, 2015.

She’s with God already.

A complete healing indeed.



                                            Taken @ New life in Christ, Christmas Party 2009  


Surely,
 Every day, every hour, every minute and every second in my life I definitely miss you. To some who have said, “wala na si mama mo”, for me, she’s not gone, she will always live in my heart as long as I live.


 I salute you, Mama Claire!